Sometimes life happens to us when we don’t see it coming. If someone had told me that would be divorced twice in my life, I would have called them crazy. Yet here I am!

Over the past couple of years, I’ve unfortunately let that fact cause me deep shame.  I felt like a failure/loser.  How could I allow this to happen to me not once, but twice?  I knew in my head that I wasn’t a failure, and everything was not my fault.  Close friends tried to tell me it was nothing to be ashamed of, but I still felt it in my heart.  Life seemed heavy and I felt bogged down.  I felt like no one would ever want me again.

In 2024 I was absent from here and working on myself. I mentioned this in my 3/24/25 post, but I didn’t mention the shame.  I wasn’t fully ready then, but this post is full disclosure.  I took time alone to read and write in my journal.  Over the year, I finally got my heart to line up with my head.  I have remembered the girl I used to be and am discovering the woman I am now. More importantly, I have  finally forgiven myself for the past and am moving forward.  Feeling the shame kept me stuck in the past and reliving it.  Quitting the shame has me looking towards the future with hope.  I finally love myself again!!!